I WANT

Okay, once again I may be revealing too much of myself here. I may be a little spoiled. The reason I say is because what I want I usually get.

When I was eight, I was obsessed with horses. My grandparents gave me a pony.

When I was in high school I was obsessed with boys (I know, what's changed?). I saw my dh. I wanted him. He ran. I chased. I won.

The first time I saw this house, I wanted it. The first day we looked. I wanted it. I figured out a way to have it, though it was about $300 more a month than we wanted to spend.

I wanted an SUV. I've always loved classic ones. I saw an old Land Cruiser for $9000 with very few miles. I wanted. I couldn't drive it. It's standard. I bought it anyway and I learned, in the parking lot of the school district's sports complex. Now both cars are standard.

So now you see why it flummoxes me that WANTING to be published is hard. Everything else I've wanted, I've gotten. The dh was the hardest, and that only took 3 years (19 months was planning the wedding).

Maybe that's part of why I won't give up.

I WANT.

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5 comments:

Shesawriter said...

I hear you, Mary. Me, I'm the opposite. I want too, but many of the things I've wanted, never came to me, so this (unpublished and *wanting* more) is kinda sorta the norm. LOL! It's interesting though. In my life, many of the things I've wanted, I never really took a shot at for fear of failing to achieve it. Then I met my DH who changed all that. He was the exact opposite and pushed me to take a chance. This endless chase up "Mount Published Author" is one of the first times I've ever really put my heart, mind, body and soul into something. And that makes the stakes even scarier.

Tanya

Bonnie Ferguson said...

And you'll get published too :)

Joanna K. Moore said...

Mar, you make me think of that Tim McGraw song...

"How bad do you want it? How bad do you need it? Are you eatin', sleepin', dreamin', with that one thing on your mind? How bad do you want it? How bad do you need it? Because if you want it all you gotta lay it all down on the line."

I listen to that song OFTEN when I feel like letting it all go. If you want it, you can get it...but you gotta want it bad.

You do. And you will have it.

Hugs,
J

mary beth said...

You go Mary. Keep wanting. It's hard but it will happen!

MaryF said...

Tanya, that's so interesting. I'm so glad you met your husband, who gave you the courage to take a chance!! You're so right about the stakes being so high the more you put into it. I think that's another reason I'm afraid to quit.

Bonnie and Mary Beth, thank you for the encouragement!

JoAnn, I LOVE those lyrics. Sound VERY appropriate.

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